iīd be lying if I said I was completely unscathed
I might be proving you right with my silence or my retaliation
would I be letting you win in my non reaction?
how would I explain?
how would I explain this to my children if I had them?
because I canīt not
because I canīt not
because I canīt afford to be misread one more time
would I be whining if I said I needed a hug?
would you feel slighted if I said your loveīs not enough?
how can I complain?
how can I complain when iīm the one who reaches for it?
because I canīt not
because I canīt not
because I cannot walk without my crutches
because I canīt not
because I canīt not
because I canīt help wonder why you ask me
to all the unheard wisdom in the schoolyard
you think youīre the right ones
you think youīre the charmed ones iīm sure
how can you go on with such conviction?
and who do you think you are why do you question me?
because we canīt not
because we canīt not
because we canīt help laugh at underestimations
because we canīt not
because we canīt not
because we canīt afford to be misled one more time
because we canīt not
because we canīt not
because we cannot help without your willingness
why do you affect me? why do you affect me still?
why do you hinder me? why do you hinder me still?
why do you unnerve? why do you unnerve me still?
why do you trigger me? why do you trigger me still?